Marcus is 3 months and one week!!

Marcus is over 3 months old now. Seems like time just flies away!
He is developing fine. Just started to show interest for his toys. His gums are itching really bad, so he is biting on to everything, leaving something with a grind.. Yucky!! :D He is so funny!
He's rolled over a few times, from back to his stomach.. He rolles over on his side for the most. But he sure knows he can move now :) He just found out he has feet as well, and they are really cool to look at... :D He can say I love you, though he kinda stopped saying that after a while. The new favorite thing to do, is the one thing his grandma Edel taught him, to make car noises.. I woke up last morning, and the first thing he did when he woke up, was to make that sound.. :D And he has done that over and over again the whole day.
He is getting really heavy, and long.. Juat started to eat some regular food actually. Where did my newborn go??? I rememeber the firts time I saw him. I was the happiest girl on this earth.. I had been longing to meet him for so long, and the first time I saw him, the first time i heard him cry/scream and the first time I smelled him, he placed some deep footprints in my heart. To watch him grow. To see him develope. To know he is healthy and strong, it makes me realized how blessed I am. How blessed we are! Me and my wonderful husband, together we made this perfect little thing. And now I can't imagine our life without him!! We just can't stop staring at him, kiss him, cuddle with him!! I know we were ment to have him in our life, he is teaching us so much... and I just love him with all my heart!! I love to see him with my family, I love to see my family hold him, and to see that he is loved by so many people. If something ever would happen to me, I know that so many people would help out.

Today I got a heartbreaking message. Marcus's 2nd cousin died from a car accident. She just turned 17. It is so sad. As a parent, I can only imagine the pain her parents feels, the loss of their daughter, it must be so hard. I don't even wanna think about living without Marcus. And I have only been his mom for 3 months. But the love you have for your children, it is so strong. Our children is so precious to us.. And I just don't think we can imagine how it is to loose a son or a daughter.
I will pray for my cousin and his wife, it is so sad what happened, words just can't explane!!

Take care of your loved ones peeps. What if tomorrow never comes... You never know what's behind the next curve.. And you will never get yesterday back..

It has been a sad week... :(

Last friday the 13th, my wonderful dog Tingeling past away. She got hit by a car, and died. I just miss her so much. She's been staying with my sister Lill for the last 2 years. And they had a special bond her and Tingeling. Tingeling was 8 years, and i can still remember the day me and Kai (Lill's fiance) drove to Sweden to pick her up.. It was love at first sight. She was such an adorable puppy. She became my best friend ever. She has always protected me from evil people :) at least who she thought was evil .. Lol..
When I cried, she always jumped up on the table, sat in front of me, and licked away my tears. When I was happy, she was happy. When I went to sleep, she slept in my bed with me..





Tingeling and I were a great team. We learned lots of tricks together, she was my first dog, and of course there is a lot I would want to do different, but I don't know where I would be without her. She has brought so much joy into my life.. She was like my baby, for a while it was just me and her. we understood eachother, she knew me, and I knew her.

Unfortunately I was unable to see her for almost two years cause I lived in the US, or it was actually over 2 years... When I saw her again, she didn't really recognize me at first, but it didn't take long till she did. And I had an amazing hour with her, all alone... We sat in the bed, she laid on my lap. Looked at me, licked me in my face, she smiled at me, and barked and wanted to play.. She played with my hand for a while, then we took a walk outside... I just remembered how much I had missed her. I wanted to take her back, but since she had been staying with Lill for so long, I would not break that bond again. But man I missed her. Dreamt about her at night.



Last friday I recieved a phone call from my sister, she was crying..
She said that Tingeling was dead... I got goosebumps all over my whole body, I just could not believe it. My little Tingeling wasn't anymore.. Lill was crying, so was I. Poor little Tingeling, she was suppose to live forever!! But that didn't happen...





I know it might seem like I am over reacting, but I swear, Tingeling was not an usual dog. She was something more. She had the sweetest personality, but at the same time, she was a beast :) She was easy to love. So spunky!!! I know I will never have a dog like that anymore.. I miss her so much.. Wish she could just come back!!





I wanna share the poem my sister wrote on her wall the night Tingeling died.. It is so beautiful and so true!!!

If tears could build a stairway,

and heartache make a lane.

I'd walk the path to heaven,

and bring you home again..

R.I.P Pingen!!

I miss you!!

Not everything can be boiled

Since Marcus turned 3 months yesterday, I bought him a present. I had my mom watch Marcus for a few hours. The first time anyone has watched him by the way, and it felt horrible to leave him.. But Marcus and bestemor had a blast. :) I myself went to sweden to buy some formula and food for the next week. And since his gums are itching I bought a teether filled with some gel. I even got him a bigger binky, and a hairbrush for him.. I got home, put the teether and the binky in the steam-bag and put it in the micro.. I heard some popping in there and took it out, and the three gelfilled sections on the teether had popped and the gel had started to come out... Man I got so mad at my self for being so stupid. I really wanted him to have that teether.. But now it was all destroyed.. So I guess not everything can be boiled/steamed..
Other than that his three months birthday was fun, we took some pictures and just had fun together. When I got Marcus ready for bed we sang songs like usual, Marcus loves when we sing for him. But he hates it when we get him dressed, he just loves being naked :D So the PJ was not a popular thing. And he did not want to go to bed in his own bed last night, so i just laid him in the middle of our bed and he was out!! He slept till 2 o'clock and wanted some food. But my milk was not enough so i had to make him a bottle, and even at the 6 o'clock meal he wanted a bottle, he is usually fine with only breastmilk at night.. So he probably has a growing period now..

We measured him again today since the lady that measured him on his 3 months check up said she did not measure him correctly, and the correct lenght is actually 26.4 inches, not 24.4 inches. So he is on the 95 precentile on weight and >97 precentile on hight. He is using 80-86 in clothing wich is 12 months in US sizes. And he is for sure the cutest little thing you can ever imagine!! <3

Our son is 3 months

We are celebrating our sons 3 months birthday today :) He celebrated his own way by rolling from back to his stomach.. He is such a good baby!!!
The 3 months check up yesterday went well. He is growing and developing just the way he is suppose to. And he is now 16 pounds 4 oz and he is 24.4 inches long.. (7440 gr and 62 cm long)
He is making tons of different noises, he does not sleep through the night yet, he is breastfeeding ones or twice every night. But that's alright we just keep him in our bed the rest of the night and then he sleeps till 9 or 10 :)

The 3 last couple of months has been pretty amazing. Being a mom is more than I could ever imagine, it is such a blessing for me, and I am so happy for my eternal family that we have made together me and Nick. I have a testimony that families can be together forever, and I am so grateful for that!!

In less than 3 weeks we will head back to the states, it has been fun vacation in Norway. Nick is probably sick of doing nothing. And I am eager to get back again. Marcus will be able to say hi to his family in Utah and we are so excited to see everybody again.. We will miss everybody here in Norway, but we sure hope they will all come and visit us in Utah. :D

Mormon messages.

Her om dagen fortalte min fantastiske mann at han hadde tittet på mormon messages på youtube.. Han fant frem en video til meg på youtube som jeg gjerne vil dele med dere.. Tårene mine bare rant.. Det var så trist, samtidig så oppløftende..
Hvis han kan tilgi, da kan jeg også tilgi...
Det er utrolig viktig å tilgi, begrave stridsøkser, glemme og legge ting bak seg. Begynne med blanke ark igjen.. Hvis vi hver eneste dag jobber med å tilgi hverandre, så vet jeg at vi blir velsignet... Kan vi ikke prøve å tenke på noen vi kan tilgi? Ta opp kontakten med noen som kanskje har gjort oss vondt, fortelle at vi har glemt og er villig å tilgi?? Livet er for kort til å kaste det bort på å være bitter..

Nå sikter jeg ikke til noen bare så det er sagt, jeg bare snakker generelt :)


Her er videoen, se den og bli inspirert :)

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